New Year New Goals

I haven't done very good with blogging in the last 6 months or even longer. I am just too tired and too... OH well. I have been thinking about the New Year and what it has in store for me. Lately I haven't been too excited about it and yet I am trying to change that thought. I read a friends blog today and realized that I let in a negative thought. After Breast cancer I decided to not sweat the small stuff. Yet that is exactly what I have been doing. After having a bad week at work and wanting to go home and hide for the weekend. God had something else in mind. He gave me two of my favorite cousins in the whole family who came down today and we have just been hanging out. Took the kids to the Train show came back and let them play and we did nothing else. I realize now that I enjoyed so much just being myself. I don't have to explain anything to them. They take me for what I am worth. Thank you God for family like that!

Finally my little girl. She is growing so fast learning how to spell words. Learning how to read. She has really grown physically. Still short and tiny to the kids in her class. But still oh so much like her mother. I am so proud of the way she thinks and is always saying to me mom that is so momish!! Another words I am doing it again. Being a parent. I have so many goals,wants and wishes for her. Yet I have been reminded this past month. That God has goals,wants and wishes for us also. To put him first!!! I am struggling so bad right now. For every right decision I make I find the devil just sitting around the corner to put doubt and fear in my heart. Please Lord remimd me that not only are you first. But also keep my life in your hands. I could go on forever but I need to get to bed. I have a breakfast to fix in the morning and a hot tea I am looking forward too.

Good night!