I went to a friends house today to give her a birthday present and see her. We use to be so close. When we were neighbors we did so much together. Grandview is a neat place to live. Now I moved out east and she moved to Hilliard. She thinks its too far to drive to visit what a sad day. I think she has been out east once after my surgery last february and then a party at my house this past december. The one thing I have learned this year is friends are few and far between. You need to keep in touch and cherish those moments. About a year after I met her she started going to church I was so excited that she found somewhere to go. I know she even accepted Christ about a year after starting at that church. She then decided she needed a man and started this dating frenzy through the local phone system. She finally met a nice guy after about a year of toads!!! Since then she hasn't been at church maybe a few times the church she was going to dissolved due to lack of leadership and people coming to church and being in a really bad part of town. Not that the last part matters at all. Everyone needs church. The last few times we talked I could tell her old habits are back. She has a foul mouth like you wouldn't believe and she is slipping away from Gods hands its very noticeable. Today I heard her make fun of people coming around the neighborhood. She stated they were Jehovah witnesses. Actually her actual words were the doorbell was ringing and when she looked out front she realized it was a bible thumper at the door. To me that was disappointing. She use to open her door and respectfully turn them away. Now she has changed her tune. Now I agree sometimes you don't want to deal with them or other people that come to door wanting to share their religion. I was so disappointed in hearing her tone in her voice and the way she made fun of them. She had a new neighbor in the kitchen who I could tell she was picking up some of her habits from the way I know her to be to the way she was coming to be. My heart went out to her I wanted to have a private conversation with her and ask her where is God in her life and she was too busy to even take a private moment with me. Just kept inviting everyone in the neighborhood over. She is so miserable right now and unhappy has a new home, a husband and a good job. I am going to start praying for her to seek me out more. Then maybe we can have a few private moments. Hopefully she will start calling me more again. What's even more sad is during my treatments and my radiation she let me know that she had just gotten too busy to take a moment to help me and joked with a mutual friend that goes to shepherd that she hadn't been checking on me. I just want to cry that I am not an important friend anymore but I still want the friendship I know that needs re-strengthen and rebuilt. Please help me God to work on this frustration with my friend April and help me to be there for her because sooner than later April is going to crash and need some hugs and I want to be there to encourage her to seek you.
